I would tell you to find what matters.
You’re looking at the gum on the bottom
of your shoe as if someone put it there
on purpose this 23rd of August, hot as
the black top of the fairgrounds before
the harvest comes limping in like a
parched cornucopia doing its best. That
walk by the pond this morning? When
you were attempting to leave something
behind you like a puff of smoke? You
might as well have been dragging blocks
by a rope tied to your waist, your free
arms giving the illusion of movement with
the poor man’s anchor or suicide weight
scraping up the dirt erratically in your trail.
You can’t predict the path of the
haphazard, dependent on the quality of the
ground as to whether a memorable mark is
left. Penance can’t be paid by exertion,
the silence of dawn broken by the same
bird insisting that everything is well.